Healed...

This word has come back to me several times over this past weekend. I haven't wrote anything in a while and felt compelled today to write about my own personal 'healing'. First i'll start with this definition and then back track if you will.

Heal: (verb/action) To make healthy, whole, or sound; restore to health, free from ailment. To bring to an end or conclusion, or settle.

Which brings me to my story in life both naturally and spiritually we encounter different situations which may lead up to the need for 'healing'. Have you ever injured yourself doing something quite normal like getting out of bed in the middle of the night to go to the restroom and you stump your toe? Hurts right? Okay lets see, what about using a sharp knife and underestimating just where your fingers should be when cutting up some sort of food item? Alright i'll list two more examples I want to paint a very clear picture that almost anyone can relate too. Have you worked with people in ministry closely, given your all blood sweat and tears but felt left bleeding? How about in a relationship and you devote yourself to the growth of the two of you but end up drained from exhaustion?

The example's provided although may not be my exact experience, I'm sure we can all find ourselves somewhere in there. They all have a common need to be healed...or settled based on the definition. I have found myself in this position fairly recently and was left at a stand still. I couldn't move forward and couldn't understand for the life of me why. I felt like I was owed something, I was wide open, felt like a glass house for all to see my pain. I often felt powerless. Felt like the life God gave me was leaving me so to speak and I didn't have control. Why you may ask? Good question, it's what I had to ask myself. I had to look back and see what or who was in control? Somewhere along the line, I had lost my focus on the things that really mattered. Why I began that relationship, why I gave my all expecting nothing in return, why I devoted my servitude to man constantly rather than God?

I went through so many changes during this time of separation from family and friends. I discovered there was a need in my own life for total healing. I needed to settle some unresolved issues and questions in my life. I needed to LIVE a healthy life. I needed to be restored to health...(wow that struck a cord). We function so long not even realizing we were bleeding internally (hypothetically speaking). Have you ever looked at someone a lil different when they had amputated limbs? Well in my mind as I imagine what this might look at one might say it's quite strange, they can't possibly be whole but I'd beg to differ. Some things have to be severed for the healing to take place. I recently went through my own what I'd like to call withdrawal process from something/people who were sucking the life out of me and they knew it. This word came across my mind and conversations I've had over the course of this weekend because it was my time to be healed and receive it with open arms! My faith had been increased but there needed to be a corresponding action to complete this process. Well I stepped out on this faith and settled the hurt. The pain has received it's disillusion papers, and I have been returned to my health given to me by God and now I'm FREE from the past ailment. God is my source, and I will not allow my health to be at risk of being damaged 'on purpose' for any man/woman anymore. We must not only learn how to forgive as children of God but there are many of us out there who simply need to be 'HEALED'. Search your heart, do a physical on yourself and see if you have open wounds that can be patched, or be strong enough to recognize if it must be severed before it effects other major areas of your life. As long as there is breath in your body it is NOT TOO LATE.