Second Chance

This blog was inspired from a recent video I watched of very famous Chris Brown offering a public apology to the world for the recent charges brought against him of physically abusing his ex-girlfriend who is also famous. I haven't really kept up with all the rumors, new clips, court drama, and allegations that have followed this story I am aware of the outcome.

Although this blog is inspired from the clip viewed it isn't completely about him. I would like to offer another spin on this. I was a single mother for about 7 yrs. I believe. Both of my eldest children were conceived while I was an active member in church. I was raised in church and a second generation PK. Most would figure I should've known better than to take this route in life. I was certainly raised with more knowledge that I just didn't want to adhere to at the time. I wanted to be one who made my own decisions and didn't apologize for doing so. Often times my own selfish decisions caused others' to feel pain. I was in the forefront of everyone's eyes.

There are other people who may have lied, deceived family, friends, co-workers, loved ones, etc. I am aware of family members who were addicted to things that shall remain nameless. These things if known might have jeopardized their current position whatever it may be. However, what I have come to realize is EVERYONE makes choices. Some right and some wrong but whatever it is...we should own up to it. When making my decisions to have children before marriage, it wasn't one that I was proud of. The second child I did want to terminate the pregnancy and I remember my father advising me not to cover one mistake with another. They encouraged me to stand up and take control of myself. With their support I did.

It wasn't easy, the road less traveled is what it felt like. I didn't leave the church, God never did anything against me so why would I take it out on him. There were days when I felt like all eyes were on me, and maybe they were. It was okay, if I was to move forward I would need to learn that everyone who makes a mistake (please adhere to your dictionary for the proper definition) deserves a chance, be it the 1st or 2nd. Who are we to judge someone else? Now, I am a wife and mother. I take great pride in taking care of my husband and family to the best of my ability. I am grateful that someone looked beyond my physical talent(s) LOL and seen my heart. All of these different events, decisions, that I will occasionally share with you from time to time makes up who I am. I have forgiven myself, and whom the son sets free he IS free indeed. Forgive yourself, be free and receive another chance...YOU deserve it!

I'm T. Poole YOU know ME...